A lot of things make it to your think tank only when they happen closer to your heart, your home.
Today, I think I need to lash out about terrorism.
The scary thing is that I understand terrorism, I wish I didn’t sometimes, I wish I could blatantly curse those who do these things they do and scorn them with every fibre of my being (which I do still do) because that seems easier but I think it was sometime last year that I really sat down one day to think about it and understood that my feelings for them don’t end at hate and anger.
I feel bad for them, I really do. I can’t imagine what it must be like being bred and raised in a setting where you are taught that it is alright, scratch that, necessary to kill people for whatever cause. I can’t imagine, in some cases, what it must be like to be born and live your entire life knowing you are nothing but a sacrificial lamb, for some sort of greater purpose. I can’t imagine for a minute, what it must be like to never know what the value of a life must be, or worse yet to be lead to such a path where the idea of the value of a life is extorted from you.
I can’t imagine what it must be like to live, but to not know what the meaning of living even is.
So I actually feel bad for them.
I know, I know you have a hundred counter arguments to throw at me and I am not saying that they aren’t valid. I am quite certain they all are.
All I am saying is that I AM also able to see the other side of the coin, be it however disturbingly wrong, and if you take a moment and maybe try to see it with me, not to justify it, just see it, then maybe you would feel more than hate and anger as well.
I am not saying that I am not pained, that I am not livid, that it doesn’t bring tears to my eyes (okay WHAT doesn’t make me cry anyway, nix this point!), but it gives me hope to think that I can find more in myself than just that, and if I can look past my principles of right and see them as lost, for even just a moment, then perhaps we all, including them, carry something really powerful within us.
My heartfelt condolences to those who have lost their loved ones in today’s attack in Kuwait, may their souls rest in peace.