A Stroll Down La-La Land

06/2013 I first met him in a car. He was tall. But he didn’t have to push the car seat so far back to make room for his legs, that whoever sat behind him would squirm like a squished bug. He was a nice kind of tall. “So I finally get to meet you,” he…

Are We Running Out Of Time?

Did I run out of time? I thought I had a little longer. I thought I had time left to say the things I didn’t tell you. I always thought that there would be just a little more time. So I put it off for the next conversation, the right conversation. I put you off…

Mind’s Eye

Sometimes I wish I could climb into your mind, not for long, just for thirty seconds. I just need a glimpse of how you see me, and I will exit. I simply feel that there is something I cannot find the words to ask you, and you will never find the words to tell me, but…

I Ruin Books And I Love It

“Don’t leave dog ears on the book.” Growing up, I was always asked to make sure that I left books in the exact same condition that it was when I first touched it. You couldn’t return it to the library if it wasn’t. But it didn’t stop in libraries alone. Even at home, I recall…

What You Find In-Between A Ticking Clock

It was a quarter past eleven at night. Elegra stared at the clock. She stared at it for a very long time, watching each remaining second tick off the year. She needed something splashy to toast the New Year, so she took out a bottle of her red wine and poured herself a glass. She…

The Fault In Our Steps

He ran and I walked. That should have been enough for me to know that it would never work out between us. “Look at my feet,” he said to me one day. “It’s athletes and dancers whose feet are so curved.” We were nestled in my dark blue bean bag when he decided to teach…

Will You Take A Walk With Me?

“Will you come with me?” I asked. “Well it depends. Where are we going?” he asked back. “Just come. I want to show you something.” “Okay, I have a feeling I might regret this though.” We weren’t always friends. But we were best friends. “So how have things been with you?” I asked, as we…

The Time I Let Down Sandra Bullock

My sister and I are nothing alike. She was born a social butterfly and I’d cry if humans even came near me. Over two decades (nearing three for her!) later, not much has changed. Once we were watching a movie, I don’t exactly remember when this was or what movie it was, that had Sandra…

Blazing Hellos, Fading Goodbyes

It was supposed to be my last trip home, to the country I grew up in. I remember staring at everything as a numbness crept into my heart. Wow, twenty-two years, how do you say goodbye to something you’ve held dear for that long? You don’t really know where to begin, so I just looked…

Looking, Searching, Confusing

It’s not there. I can’t find it. It’s not coming to me and I am not able to go to it. I read books, I devoured them actually, I read faster than I have in years. I even enjoyed the books, but it wasn’t there. I matched my insomniac mind with my heart brimming love,…

A Writer’s Absence (Unedited)

As a human being I find so many voices in my head. Some kind, some guilty, some heart broken, some hopeful, some tormented, some loving, some hurting. As a writer, I bury some of them. I know that’s odd. Aren’t writers supposed to give voices and not take them away? I know that’s how I…